Week 3 – What am I afraid of…..?

This has been a very interesting week for me, not a particularly enjoyable week, but interesting. I have been completely overwhelmed this week. I know many people are struggling with their personal demons, but I feel mine got the best of me this week. I don’t mean to complain or whine, but this is my blog, and I feel I am entitled to share. Work has been very busy lately, school is just overwhelming me, I have a new calling in the Relief Society Presidency in my ward, I am looking for a new home, I am not getting enough rest, and I know my eating habits have turned topsy turvey.

Part of this week’s class was “Deconstructing Your Fears”. This is when my light bulb went on, and I bet if I listened carefully I would have heard a “ding, ding” too. I am afraid of EVERYTHING. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it’s true, fear has me paralyzed. I am afraid to make decisions, in case they are the wrong ones. Then I read something in our readings this week “FEAR THRIVES ON SECRECY” (Acton Foundation for Entrepreneurial Excellence). This is so true, when I fear something, I feel inadequate, and who wants to share their inadequacies with anyone. So I keep my fears to myself. If misery loves company, fear loves solitude. It is time for me to speak up and share my fears. There may be someone else out there who has the same fear, or has found a way to cope with it or, better yet, overcome it. Maybe my experience, could help someone else. I don’t have to climb the mountain and shout my fear from upon high, but just sharing it with those I trust, will help me confront my fear in the light of day, and may also help me realize, it’s really not as scary as I first thought.

This is my time, and I choose to be in control. 

Intro Week – Lessons Learned

In my “Introduction to Entrepreneurship” class this week, I learned 2 things. Well I learned more than 2 but these are the 2 I would like to share.

No. 1 – I was inspired by a paper written by Jeff Sandefer. I learned that I don’t only have to be in business to be an Entrepreneur, I can apply the skills learned and used by Entrepreneurs in every aspect of life. In order to be successful, I must put my fears aside, make a bold move and go for it. Most of my life, I have sat quietly on the sidelines, trying to blend into the wallpaper, but I realize I have worth, and what I have to say matters. I am excitedly and expectantly looking to the future.

No. 2 – Use time wisely – it’s a precious commodity. I had a task to complete this week. I had an hour to complete it, but was done in about 15 minutes. When I finished the task, I thought I should use the remaining time and review the information I had available to me. It was late, I had a busy day at work, so I ignored my inner voice. I tried to justify my choice with, “You know the material. You know the answers. Trust your gut, follow your first instinct.” I failed at my task. I wasted 45 perfectly good minutes, all because I was arrogant and decided not to review the material. Lesson learned. I will make better use of my time and review, review, review.