Week 8 - Leader – do I have what it takes?

This week in our class we have been reading, watching and learning about leaders and followers. This got me thinking, “Am I a good leader? Do I have what it takes to lead effectively?” As I pondered these questions, I realized that it depends on the scenario. There are times when I take the lead, and other times when I follow. In my opinion, being a good leader is knowing when to follow a great leader.

I had an epiphany of sorts this past week. I am in the midst of a very stressful financial undertaking, and things didn’t really go according to my plan. Instead of taking a step back to review what I had learned and regroup, I allowed my emotions to take control and a “meltdown” ensued. I am grateful to all those people who rallied around me to help me back up, but later on I realized this was my weakness. Please don’t misunderstand me, being affected emotionally is not the weakness, allowing the emotions to take control is the weakness. I learned I must control the situation and take cues from the emotions, but keep them always in check. You cannot lead an organization by always succumbing to tears; those you lead, look to you for strength and guidance.  

Our general manager is looking for someone to take the reins in our office, so that he can focus on other areas. Although my emotions were linked to a personal matter, he will remember this moment and wonder “if she struggles with those decisions, how much more will she struggle with difficult business decisions.” I know I have the knowledge and skill to take on this responsibility, but I also know I need to work on my leadership abilities. You cannot follow someone into battle who is cowering and sniveling. You can, however, follow someone who acknowledges their fear, but rides out ahead of the charge with courage and a desire to make a difference. This is the leader I strive to become.